Everything lately has been tugging at my heart. My heart is in such pain. I am in a dark place in my life right now. I don’t want to be here. I am going to try like hell to get out it. I don’t want to linger in this place. It’s absolutely awful. Feeling like everyone is out to hurt me. Feeling so alone. My heart feels like everyone has abandoned me. My head knows differently. My head knows that no one is out to hurt me. I want happiness and sometimes I just feel so lost. I can’t find my way back to that road. Had I ever really found that road? Regardless I do want to find it. I wish I could ask for directions or a map or maybe a starting point. But I know I need to do this alone. I want to be a strong and independent woman. I want to have the confidence to be able to do or try anything. I want to be able to say without a doubt “I would want to be friends with me or I am a great mom or I am beautiful woman!” I want to get to that point.
Sometimes being in a place of pain can be the start of coming out of the darkness. You can’t be free of pain until you feel it and understand it, kwim? I’m sorry you are feeling lost, and I can tell you that there are many people who care about you and are hoping you can reach out and reach up to all the hands of the people who really do care and believe in you. Yes, you do have to work through the pain yourself, but you don’t have to do it alone at all. We are right there with you:)
You have a starting point and a map for learning how strong and amazing you are, and you can do this! It takes some pain and a lot of honesty to make it through, but the results are way worth it. You aren’t alone:)
I’ve been in that place, and I can tell you that as long as you keep taking those steps forward, as small as they seem, you will make it out and you, my dearest, will soar.
There is no light without the dark, and I know you’ll make it through.
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Good for you. Many people go their entire lives without wondering who they are, where they are going, or where they came from.